Sunday 25 December
15 days sober
RR 100%

God,
Grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change.
The courage to change the things I can.
And the wisdom to know the difference.
Amen.

Merry Christmas everyone! It might be Christmas day but still wanted to keep the routine of updating this in the morning. Wishing everyone a happy and sober Christmas!

Saturday 24 December
14 days sober
RR 100%

God,
Grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change.
The courage to change the things I can.
And the wisdom to know the difference.
Amen.

Had a busy day yesterday hanging out with family but still managed to get some stepwork done. Had an upset stomach yesterday, which thankfully is already feeling better this morning. Did notice my emotional over-reaction to this yesterday though. Recovery work will help me better deal with things in life when they go wrong. This is important because we are all powerless over life but it is possible to be at least reasonably happy for most of the time (including when you are in work etc!) no matter what. And maybe very happy for much of the time! Planning to get to as many 12 step meetings as I can over the festive period.

Thursday 23 December
13 days sober
RR 100%

God,
Grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change.
The courage to change the things I can.
And the wisdome to know the difference.
Amen

Going to try this again today after trying it one day last week and then forgetting to do it. Basically, you start the day giving the world 5 freebies. So the first 5 times someone has done something wrong to you, or something goes wrong you give they/it a free pass.

Wed 22 December (Part Two)
12 days sober
RR 100% (feeling less angry than yesterday!)

God,
Grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change.
The courage to change the things I can.
And the wisdom to know the difference.
Amen

Wanted to check in on here again today as for technical reasons I haven't been able to do any outreach phone calls tonight. Still feeling emotional disturbance after arguing with a family member yesterday, but the important thing is I feel better about it tonight than I did last night. Which means in the morning I will feel even better about it, and by tomorrow evening better still.

Wed 22 December
12 days sober
RR 100% (but feeling angry!)

God,
Grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change,
the courage to change the things I can,
and the wisdom to know the difference.
Amen

Well I feel like over the last week and a half I have done much better in terms of staying calmer. At work I have been staying calmer and even though I didn't doubt how much work there is still to do in terms of recovery, I did think I was on something of a sort of "zen calmness" role. However, last night I was speaking to a family member on the phone and he really wound me up! I tried to stay calm but eventually I cracked and got angry. I have made immediate amends and "cleaned my side of the street". I apologised for getting angry. I didn't get an apology back but that's irrelevant. My side of the slate is clean. However, despite doing this I found it really hard to get to sleep (this happened late on in the evening) and yeah I just was annoyed that it had got my back up so much emotionally. My resolve to stay sober is 100% but obviously I need to keep an awareness of my emotional state because this thing really wound me up last night. Onwards and upwards today, it's a new day after all!